If you have read any of my journals you know the last year has brought many changes. On July 30 it will be one year since my son passed away.. The saddest day of my life, his birth was one of the happiest, my daughters birth was the second. On Oct 31st my boyfriend of over three years moved out and it was hard on me, but it was time for us to be apart. On Nov 1st my daughter who hasn't lived with me in over 6 years moved to AZ and back into my daily life. We have been rediscovering each other. I am grateful for her everyday. She is the light of my life and I am glad she is here and happy.
In May a long time friend
moved to AZ, he and I have been getting to know each other in person after over 8 years of friendship that started online and then moved to phone calls and finally in Dec he came for his first in person visit. Since then he has become a very important part of our lives. We are discovering many things we suspected for a long time are true about each other. We are both still vulnerable where our hearts are concerned after bad break ups in our past but we are getting thru the walls we have built up and are breaking them down. We are building trust, compassion and understanding of each other. He has done things with me I haven't done in years... like dancing and kissing in the rain.... dancing in the kitchen... holding my hand when we walk... kissing me in the grocery store.... going to a nice dinner.... singing to me with a song on the radio... just going for a walk in the park...I know corny things, but nice things.
Not exactly sure what the future holds for me, but I am hopeful that he will be in it for a long time.
I have been down for a long time, but I feel the waters parting over my head and the sun breaking thru... I have added some images he has taken of me. He has even more on his page and I have a feeling there will be many more on his page in the future. For some reason he thinks I'm beautiful and loves to take my picture.
Bless you all for your support over the years and the affection given to me and the tears and smiles you have shared with me. You have no idea how much it means to me even if I never meet you in person you have a place in my heart.